Like most of us, my thoughts these days have been on Ukraine and the horrific slaughter that is happening there. Even though I have no memory of it, Ukraine is the country of my birth. In October 1943, when I was only four and a half months old, our family had to leave under similar circumstances as people are leaving now -- very quickly and with only the barest necessities. We were fortunate to be able to travel by train, as many fled on foot and died en route. Death and destruction were everywhere but I was safely tucked away at my mother's breast, unaware of the danger in which we found ourselves. My two-year-old brother was probably more aware, as were my parents, my grandmother, and my two teenage uncles travelling with us.
That was a long time ago. In 2012 Hardy and I went to Poland and Ukraine to visit the countries of our birth. I will never forget Kyiv and its ornate monasteries that looked like something out of a fairy tale with their colorful domes.
The Monastery of the Caves has a special memory for me. I somehow got separated from the tour group but found my way back. The Ukrainian guide told me that the group was inside the caves and that I would find my friends there. I wandered around in the labyrinth of mummified bodies and felt pure panic and claustrophobia. Finally, I saw the light of day and the tour group was already outside! I was so happy to return to the land of the living! It felt like a resurrection!





I love your owl picture. I'm forwarding it to my daughter--it's her favorite critter.
ReplyDeleteI love it too!! It gives me peace!
ReplyDeleteThat owl is incredible. Also thinking and praying for the situation in Ukraine regularly.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Pat! May God give us “Owl Wisdom”.
DeleteEmailed by Nancy Fehderau:
ReplyDeletehad forgotten that you and Hardy made a trip to Poland and Ukraine. What a treasure! I wonder what transformations will come as an outcome of this conflict - so vicious, so useless, so unjust. So close to our families. I chuckled at the cheeky little owl at the end - wonder what wisdom he is holding.....Nancy
I feel so sad about it all, Nancy. The owl gives me some peace!
DeleteI have been thinking about Oma and Opa and Große Oma and you babies fleeing Ukraine (so much more vivid thanks to your "Ellie's World" stories. Amazing how trauma can pass through our DNA....thinking so much about all the people suffering there around the world. Glad you and Uncle Hardy could visit that part of the world and reconnect yourself with a place you knew only as an infant.
ReplyDeleteLove the Owl I always think of Oma ❤️
I know, Stacey, the trauma was so real for them and is also a part of us isn’t it? Your Grossmama (my Oma) lost so much in the process that she never really recuperated from it. I’m understanding her more and more as I get older.
ReplyDeleteElfrieda, your message arrived after a day spent making comforters for Ukrainian refugees. A friend here in Moravian Manor organized the project. I dedicate my small contribution to all refugees. May they in fact find refuge, as you and your family did.
ReplyDeleteOh, I’m so grateful for all the help our family found through MCC. Time and again I thank the wonderful people, who, like you, worked to keep us warm and fed and gave us a safe haven. Thanks be to God
ReplyDeleteThank you for this Elfrieda. I too thought of all the trauma our parents and grandparents had to endure and how much of that found it’s way to their children and possibly their grandchildren. It’s so good that we have the freedom to openly write and talk about it. And, yes, thank you Universe for the MCC and all organizations who are so selflessly giving their time and resources. Without them it is very likely that you and I would not be alive today.
ReplyDeleteWe are so thankful for the freedom we have, but more and more we also realize how fragile the gift of freedom is! We must do everything we can to preserve it!
ReplyDeleteFrom your description I believe we visited The Monastery of the Caves, beautiful and haunting at the same time. The daisies remind me of the bravery and hope of the Ukrainian people. I stand with them, praying for peace. Thanks for sending comfort and hope in this post, Elfrieda. :-D
ReplyDeleteisn’t it amazing that we were in Ukraine at almost the same time (a year apart, I believe) and didn’t know anything about each other, and here we are, sharing our experiences and weeping over destruction of such beauty? It was such a lovely peaceful time, and now this! Lord have mercy!
ReplyDeleteThank you for another post, Elfrieda. I too find the domes of the churches and monasteries so beautiful, and hope they will not be destroyed. Glad you and Hardy could visit there; that dream has not been fulfilled for me and perhaps will not be. But it's the horrible suffering and war that matter now. God have mercy!
ReplyDeleteI hope that some day there will be peace and you can go there and see that beautiful city of Kyiv because it will not have been destroyed!
ReplyDeleteLawrence Klippenstein always encouraged and helped me in my historical searching and writing. We met in Switzerland at an MCC Retreat in 1985. He will be missed in many ways.
ReplyDeleteI miss him already, since he’s not sending me a comment on this post!!
ReplyDeleteFrom Ruth by email:
ReplyDeleteSo nostalgic and happy for you that you had the opportunity to return to your birth country when you did. Who knows how many of those beautiful buildings will be left standing after this horrible senseless war!
Spring is a time for renewal and hope…let’s embrace that.
So special that we could attend Lawrence’s funeral together albeit for different reasons. Thankyou for sharing your thoughts😍
DeleteElfrieda April 2022 at 18:33
Thank you for inviting me along. I’m enjoying the Russian history book that was on the give away table. What a great idea- to gift an avid reader’s books to people at his forever farewell