Just before Easter, a little boy wanders from the backyard on
their farm. After several days of searching, in which the whole community is
involved, his body is found in a nearby creek. His parents are heartbroken,
their grief etched on their bewildered faces. Their community grieves with them.
Just before Easter, my daughter's friend, who has three small
children, is given only weeks to live. She spends the Easter weekend at home,
surrounded by her children and her husband, all saying their farewells, basking
in love that should have been distributed over many years and is now
concentrated in one weekend. Their church community brings them food and also cleans their house so that the family can be together as much as possible.
Just before Easter, two people my age, whom I have known all my
life, pass away. These are not sudden deaths, but rather deaths caused by
lingering illness. We all knew
that death would be imminent, but when it happened it was still a shock. They
will never again hug their grandchildren nor see those yet unborn.
Just before Easter, Jesus visits his dear friends in Bethany:
Mary, Martha, and Lazarus. The sisters greet him with tears streaming down their
faces. Their beloved brother has died. Jesus himself is so moved at their sorrow
that he too begins to weep, even though he knows it is not the end of the
story. He tries to tell them, but they don't understand.

The Raising of Lazarus (after Rembrandt) by Vincent van Gogh, 1890
(Van Gogh died at age 37 from a self-inflicted gunshot wound.)
Death seems especially
threatening when we, as young children, become aware that all of us will
die, and again when we get older and realize our days are numbered. In
between these times, we live as
though death doesn't exist, until someone close to us dies and we are shocked into awareness.
I just finished reading a book written by Sue Klebold, a woman who
was especially traumatized when her teenage son committed both murder and
suicide. The book is called A
Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy. Sue's son, Dylan,
was one of the two shooters
at Columbine High School in 1999 who killed 13 people before ending his own
life. Klebold's journey is difficult to read, but it made me aware of how we rally
to victims and how we condemn perpetrators and their families.
How do we deal with death? In each of the instances I mentioned,
the community stands beside those personally affected and grieves with them.
Even Sue Klebold, the mother of the perpetrator, had people who stood by her in
her darkest hours. Mary and Martha had their community too, but they longed for
Jesus; he gave their brother back to them.
I am comforted by a passage in the Gospel of Luke (20.34-38) where
Jesus speaks of the afterlife to some Sadducees who tried to trick him. About those who have passed from this life
Jesus says, "They will be like angels and cannot die. They are the
children of God, because they have risen from death. . . . The God
of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob is the God of the living, not of the dead, for to
him all are alive."
Christ has risen, and so we shall rise …
The day will come when there will be a remade universe . . .
when we can do all things, when we shall be those gods that we are
described as being in Scripture. To be sure, it feels wintry enough still: but
often in the very early spring it feels like that. Two thousand years are only
a day or two by this scale. It remains with us to follow or not, to die in this
winter, or to go on into that spring and that summer. -- C. S. Lewis (in Watch for the Light)
Until my father died - the first time I experienced death so closely - I never truly grasped the importance of 'showing up' after someone passes away. My parents' neighbors were on our doorstep within minutes, offering food, condolences, and what I came to see as the most important thing - distraction. Time stopped when my father died and it was only the comfort of friends and neighbors that kept us putting one foot in front of the other as we moved through the grief.
ReplyDeleteWe have experienced that as well. We were in Africa when two family deaths occurred. One was our first born, and the other was my husband's brother who died in his early forties of Leukaemia. Both times our African friends surrounded us and showed us what it means to be there for one another.
ReplyDeleteA wonderfully thoughtful and moving post! I think that death is so hard for us all to grasp because as sentient beings we are aware of our feelings and thoughts as unique. Knowing this we hope to transcend death though expression of one form or another. Those who move through life numb get shocked into the reality of existence when someone passes or tradgedy strikes but when you are living with intention death is truly a companion, a recognition of the finite nature of time must be present to do anything in the moment. The loss of young life affects us all so deeply because we know of their innocence, in that they don't really know of their own mortality. We also know of the extreme love and dedication that parents feel for their children and how we long for nothing more then their safe, healthy, happy passage through life. Klebold's pain is heartbreaking in another way, a loss of her child but a horrific reminder that our children are of us but their own unique beings. So many thoughts on this so much emotion. I am glad you are sharing them.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your thoughts with me as well, Stacey. You're right, it's most difficult when innocent children are involved. We blame ourselves for not being careful or watchful enough. Sometimes people blame those who lose their children as well. It is best when community rallies around in love and support. I know this from experience.
DeleteElfrieda, I saw that painting in Amsterdam, and the light in it stays with me still. Van Gogh painted his own face on Lazarus's body. It makes us ask, from what death is he (are we) being raised? And even, what is the difference between death and life? For those of us left behind, death leaves a hole that is never filled in the same way again, but for those dying death is a portal into something we only know about because of the resurrection of Christ. And the assurance that "God is the God of the living, not the dead" is Mystery indeed! Thanks for your thoughts.
ReplyDeleteOops, this is Lori Matties. :)
DeleteThank you, Lori. Even seeing that painting electronically I was aware of that awesome light! I d not realize that it was Van Gogh's face in the picture!
DeleteHope to see you tonight at the Mennonite Heritage Gallery where we will see still more paintings and drawings of refugees facing death and destruction. God have mercy on us!
Thought provoking Elfrieda! Attending three funerals in two weeks certainly brings death,it's inevability and all that it entails to the forefront of our thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI know, Ruth. It's also my age. People my age and younger are passing away. Cause for thinking about it!
ReplyDeleteYou've had many, and deep, encounters with death, Elfrieda. You have found comfort and wisdom in the words of others, and now you have added us, your readers, to the company of mourners. We don't get to "a certain age" without knowing the certainty of death. May you be blessed by kind words and deeds today, and may you be a blessing to others.
ReplyDeleteShirley, I will hold your blessing close to my heart these days. Thank you!
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